Day 75: When Work Becomes Mental Survival (Not Motivation)
The Rest Day That Wasn’t
Yesterday was scheduled as a rest day. My brain disagreed. Today was supposed to compensate, but by nightfall, I remembered exactly why I work—and it’s not what you’d expect.
The Real Reason I Code
Here’s the uncomfortable truth: I don’t work because I’m motivated. I work because when I don’t, my mind spirals into random thoughts that drive me insane. I start craving human connection like I’m the protagonist in some friendship-power movie.
Spoiler alert: Life isn’t a movie, and coding has become my mental survival strategy.
Mass Application Strategy
Today’s action: 20 frontend internship applications sent out.
My Tech Stack:
- React ⚛️
- Tailwind CSS 🎨
- API Integration 🔌
- AI-powered development workflow 🤖
The Cover Letter Experiment:
- 2-3 weird, creative cover letters (sometimes memorable > professional)
- 17-18 standard professional applications
- Minimum expectation: $70/month
Can any of you help with it after our 75 days of journey
Project Update: “Mutiny” Landing Page
Currently preparing to ship the landing page for my latest project. Built with React, styled with Tailwind, featuring AI integration for high-speed outputs.
The Real Question: How many people will actually sign up for early access when I drop that email form?
I’m genuinely curious about the gap between interest and action in our developer community.
The Internship Dilemma
Looking for suggestions on where/how to apply effectively. My skills are solid, my expectations are realistic, but the application process feels like throwing darts in the dark.
What I bring:
- Production-ready React development
- Tailwind CSS mastery
- API integration experience
- AI-assisted development for rapid prototyping
- Honest work ethic (even if the motivation is unconventional)
Thoughts?
Anyone else use work as a mental escape mechanism rather than following passion? Or am I the only one being brutally honest about this?
Drop your internship application tips, project feedback, or just share if you relate to the mental survival aspect of coding.
